Dear Lord, I hardly know where to begin. I only know that even though the tears may flow, this letter is long overdue. From the moment I said I surrender all, on my knees that Monday night over thirty years ago it has been a glorious ride with you. You have loved me beyond measure, loved me even when I had no idea how to love my self. I knew how to hurt myself but I had no idea how to love or how to be loved. I was so lost when you rescued me I can hardly explain it. I remember being broken into pieces that were scattered all over every town I ever lived in but you didn’t care how big a job it would be to put me back together. You just said come to me and when I said YES my life changed forever. I think we take that word unconditional far too lightly. Nobody in their right mind loves like you do.
This has got to be the one area that I feel so inadequate in, yet I hear myself repeatedly saying like Paul—your grace is sufficient for me…when I am weak you are strong. It is uncanny and so like you that your grace is so saturated in your love that it is hard to wrap my mind around it. And what’s more there is an endless supply of it. I completely understand now why you said nothing can separate me from your love. Your gracious love, your grace saturated love is with me anywhere and everywhere I go and it never ever runs out.
I am so in love with you Lord. Who could have thought that somebody like me could wakeup on a Tuesday morning and find myself on a pathway strewn with nothing but your loving kindness and your tender mercy. And even in the hard times when I would have the audacity to choose my way over yours, you never ever ever gave up on me. I know that that is love.
Even all these many years later I am yet blown away by your endless, unfailing, limitless love for me. Your nurturing, your patience your well timed correction. Amazing. Your growing and grooming me for such a time as this. You kept me and you poured into me and you persuaded me that I was worthy of being kept. You have drawn closer to me with every storm and have allowed me to see just how awesome it is to be completed by you whenever there is a shortfall. I don’t have to beg or perform, you just make yourself available.
I am so grateful that I have learned to let you have your way in loving me. Thank you for your love to date and the way you will love me in years to come. Thank you for giving your all to me so I would be able to give my all to others. Thank you that I haven’t seen anything yet and the best is yet to come.
Your daughter. Teirrah McNair